In-side-Finitude

When's the next video going to come out?

B"H

 Why So Slow?

 

Hi.

My name is Josh, and I am going to be a freshman this year at ______ [Public] High School in Wisconsin.

I just wanted to let you know that these videos have been a very special reminder of Hashem's Power and how He is always with me. The simple fact that these are real stories from real people makes it even more special and almost contagious! 

When I realized that there were no new videos, I was really bummed out.  Whats going on????

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Hi Josh.

It's greatly appreciated when I receive positive feedback on the videos. Thanks a lot!

To answer your question...

I am working extremely hard on the project all by myself, funding is non-existent, and until people that say they want to help me, actually help, the videos will continue to be released in a very slow manner and at lower quality than desired.  Right now, I have numerous incredible interviews that I cannot release because my computer is falling apart (due to over-usage), and my camera is breaking. 

There is nothing more that I want to do than to make this my life's work. To put out tons of inspirational proofs of Hashem's Existence and the Awesome Wisdom of Torah on a weekly basis.  This, however, will always be dependent on Jewish people truly wanting and acting upon their desires to help (whether through comments, "likings," e-mails, connections, money, expertise, etc.).

The Mishkan [the location where Our Infinite G-d was Revealed IN(side of)FINITUDE] was dependent upon EVERY JEW making a contribution.  Until each Jew volunteered a piece of their lives to its completion, the Infinite was not Revealed in this World in such an Awesome Manner.  

The same idea holds true for this website. 

It is NOT a money making venture, but a pure service to help Jewish people of all "leanings" recognize how Hashem and His Torah is the secret of all of our lives. Help is not going towards profits, but materials in order for this vision to become a reality. 

Each person that helps, like you sending this e-mail, will bring us one step closer to seeing its potential revealed.

If you or anyone else that reads this recognizes a way to help...PLEASE DO!  There is nothing more frustrating than trapping incredible information about Hashem inside of my apartment.  Especially because I KNOW that it has the potential, when the multimedia reaches a high level, to Re-Inspire the entire JEWISH NATION. 

All the best.

Avner YD 

Finding Hashem's Infinite Essence Within Each One of Us, In-side-Finitude

B"H

    Another part of the website is to present tangible ways for educators to use the research as inspirational material for others.

    My hope is that these videos will be posted on all Jewish websites.  The ideas will be exciting and acceptable for all Jews, regardless of one's "personal affiliation."

    Here we will explore 6 proofs that the Infinite Essence of G-d Exists within every Jew.  No group has a monopoly on Hashem.

 

 

 

    The premise of such speeches is to take an Eternal and Pure Teaching of Torah and present it in a way that illustrates that it is not just a "philosophical idea," but an INTRINSIC part of reality.

    I have put forth an incredible amount of effort over the past past nine months to make the website a tangible experience. In order to truly move  forward I NEED YOUR HELP. 

    If you enjoyed the class, share it with others! Facebook, Twitter, Google +, Stumble Upon, Blogs, etc.

    If you have a similar story, please email me! [[email protected]]

THE DONATION BUTTON IS ON THE RIGHT SIDE OF THE SCREEN.  

PLEASE CONSIDER HELPING OUT!

Be well,

 Avner YD 

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**Edited version of the interview with Irv, as discussed in the speech above**

 

 

 

A Soul Match Elevated To Jerusalem

B"H

 

JUST BE PATIENT...

YOUR SOUL MATCH IS WAITING!

VIDEO PROOF #6: 

 

    Besides the two videos you are about to watch, I have four additional proofs that illustrate the awesome potentials hidden inside of recognizing your Jewish Soul Match.  A lack of time and money slows down the desired production time. 

PLEASE ENJOY! 

 

 

    If the only explanation for marrying Jewish is "Tradition," one should not be surprised when the learner chooses a different pathway.

    An Example: Your son goes to college and finds himself in a happy monogomous relationship with a Non-Jew. He becomes comfortable with her and begins to wonder why "Tradition" is so important?

    When the son sifts through the two opinions, he will come to the conclusion that the current relationship is built upon practical reality, while your "tradition" remains undefinable, mysterious and unfounded. The "tradition" you expect for him to act upon is in complete opposition to the research based education YOU provided for him. Academia is meant to teach a person how to make practical decisions based on empirical information. More than that, the current relationship has yielded the greatest consistency and happiness he has experienced in life. Further, he can confidently declare that he is currently in a position where he desires to take part in an act which is both moral and honorable. 

    Based on this practical contemplation, he will eventually ask, "How can my parents say, with so much confidence, that I need to marry a Jewish girl? How can they know if the next person I find will bring me as much comfort and joy? If they care about me, how can they pull me away from this relationship when there is no empirical foundation for 'tradition'?" 

    His arguments clearly overwhelms the parents call for "Tradition." Why? He has employed his intellect. His intellect has created a "New Tradition" called practical happiness.

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    The Torah's approach to Marriage WAS NEVER one of "Tradition!" 

    It's declaration is extremely practical. A Jewish person, literally, has a soul which is unique to the Jewish Nation. In order for a Jewish soul to fully fulfill his or her potential in this world, it must unite with another Jewish Soul. 

    It is important to know that the ONLY REASON that Jewish Soul-Matches has any validity, or even entered into world-conciousness, is because G-d revealed it to be a responsibility at Mount Sinai, as found in Written Torah. 

    The Written Torah states that the correct position for a Jew to put oneself in is to Marry and be Faithful with another Jew (again, not for reasons of morality but because G-d created and desired this way), while the Other Nations are not limited to a specific group. People of the Other Nations ARE HOLY in G-d's eyse when they involve themselves in Honest and Morally Decent Relationships with any other Nation (now is not the time to define this).

    Jewish Soul-Matches is not a logical argument for happiness. It is not a "Tradition." It is not even a moral guideline. Instead, it is an insight into the intrinsic make-up of the world, and if followed, is one of the necessary steps for a Jew to fulfill his or her potential.

    With this said, if Jewish Soul Matches are an intrinsic part of the world there should be observable proofs and a collection of experiences that support this as being a concrete part of reality. Concrete evidence of this intrinsic Jewish-connection, and therefore, an illustration of the actual design of reality, is the only way to superceed all possible arguments when one is already "happy" outside of a Jewish relationship.

   I hope you enjoyed the video...Please continue by scrolling down to a second proof.

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THE WINDOWS OF SHAMAYIM OPEN

To Show the Importance of the Choices which Lie Ahead

PROOF #1

This is the first video that I posted on youtube.  

There will be an explanation on what happened here according to Kabbalah in the near future. 

 

 

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I have been putting a lot of effort into the creation of every video, therefore, I need your help!

**DONATIONS AND COMMENTS ARE GREATLY APPRECIATED!**

[Please click on the tzedekah option to the right of your screen]

 

 

Kol Tov (Only Good),

Avner Y.D.

If you have a similar story to share, question, or a way to help please let me know: 

 [email protected].

 

Sa'adya Tzvi, Prodezra, Y-Love and Erez: Jewish Music

B"H

17th Sivan 5771

The complete website will include a section that advertises, gives personal insight into the lives of, and encourages the success of positive Jewish artists that cater to this generation of Jewish Youth.

What Sparked This Idea...

    A couple of months ago, I was invited to a Haifa-Benefit Hip-Hop Concert in Madison, WI.  The musicians that took part were, Reuven "Prodezra" Formey  (see sample videos at the bottom of the blog), Y-Love with DJ Erez, and Sa'adya Tzvi.  All three artists are members of Shemspeed and are creating great music  that is filled with a positive Torah messages. 

    Going to the concert reminded me of the incredibly positive effect that meeting Matisyahu played in my acceptance and growth as a Jew. 

    Before moving into this story (with Matisyahu), here is a sample video of the three artists and myself backstage.

 

 

 To the left is me beatboxing...Beatboxer (in background) and final rapper is Saadya Tzvi... first rapper is Prodezra...second rapper is Y-Love

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How I was influenced by Meeting Matisyahu

Freshman Year of College, 2009

    ...I still remember my sister "forcing" me to go to a broken down bar in Iowa City for a Chassidic Jew's concert.  Her argument was that he was a good beatboxer.  

    This did not overly excite me, so I told her that I would only go if a friend of mine would join. 

     My friend agreed.

     The concert was called for 8 PM and costed 5$ at "Gabes Bar."  When Justin and I arrived at the venue, the doors to the concert were locked. 

    A few minutes later, a tall and skinny Jewish guy with a yamakah walked in.  We had no clue who he was, yet, for some reason he approached us.

    First he apologized that the opening band was not there and then introduced himself as "Matisyahu."  We spoke for a few minutes.  Afterwards, he expressed his hope that my friend and I would make sure to come back at 9:30PM to hear his band.   

    We liked him [and already bought tickets], so we agreed.

    When we came back at 9:30, the place was NOT PACKED.  There were maybe 50 people inside of  a garage-looking-bar, filled with dirt ,and walls tagged with chaotic scribbles of graffity.  No one seemed to care that there was going to be a musician performing.  As a matter of fact, the majority of people had their backs facing the band.

    Within 2 minutes, the entire bar (all 50 people) were standing next to the stage.  My buddy and I were totally impressed with his talent and personality. 

    I still remember walking home and saying to my friend in disbelief, "I never looked at an Orthodox Jew as a person just like me.  Now I see that, not only are they normal, but can be cool. I bet he will be famous soon." 

    At that time of this concert he was booking shows essentially for the price of travel.  Literally 2 months later, as everyone knows,  he was selling out shows at large venues for 10's of thousands of dollars.

 

MY FAVORITE SONG HE PLAYED IN IOWA...

  

 

 

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   The Formation of Sa'adya Tzvi's Band

   A couple of weeks after the concert I thought it would be nice for Sa'adyah to talk to, play with, and inspire a few former campers of mine (Gan Israel, Milwaukee).  I specifically had this in mind because two of the campers (Avi: Drums and Daniel G: Bass) are precocious musicians. 

    I called Sa'adya to see if he was up for it, and he immediately agreed.

    When we got to Avi's house, the three set up their instruments and started playing together.  Everyone in the room was smiling with amazement at how quickly they picked up on one another's styles and sounded like a  polished, professional band (3:26 in video).

 

CHECK IT OUT FOR YOURSELF

 

 

 

  Soon, IY"H, I will post an interview with Sa'adya Tzvi so that you can learn more about his life.  

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Below you will find a sample video from each artist that I met in Madison

  

SA'ADYA TZVI WITH AVI AND DANIEL

 

 



REUVEN "PRODEZRA" FORMEY

(ReJewvenated)

 

 

 

Y-LOVE

 

 

    I hope you enjoyed this post.  I believe these are some of the new Jewish innovators that will inspire many, each one filling a unique role according to their personalities and talents.

Make sure to like facebook pages and websites to help them build a fan base. 

More to come on today's Jewish Music at a later date! 

 Lots of success guys. 

 

Kol Tov.

Avner Y.D.

Transcending Physical Space through Prayer

B"H

Please Watch the Newest Interview with Zac Miller! 

 

  

  

    Here he talks about the first time that he prayed at the Kotel.  The prayer which genuinely fell from his lips contained a very unique request.  Zac asked Hashem (G-d) to transfer his grandfather's physical discomfort to himself.

    There is no way that Zac's previous education hinted to, in the slightest, the possibility of substituting his grandfather’s pain halfway across the world to himself (From New Jersey to Israel).
Many times we feel incorrectly helpless when physical space "separates" us from a relative in an urgent health situation. [i.e. If I am not in the room, I have no sway.]  These feelings of helplessness are created by a lack of understanding of our relationship to our Infinite Creator.

    Physical Space is a system constantly created by G-d.  G-d is the ONLY DEPENDENT EXISTENCE.   This means He chooses how the Physical world appears at all times.  Since He has no boundaries ANYTHING CAN HAPPEN, at ANY MOMENT, according to what HE DESIRES.
It is He that desires to place the world in a relatively "orderly system" of definable experiences. 

    This "orderly system" is what scientists correctly try to observe, analyze and interpret.   However, this framework of observation is limited to the physical systems.  What happens when the physical systems seem to be "superseded"?

    Human perception defines this type of occurrence as a SHIFT from observable physical reality to "miracle" or "random phenomenon."  These definitions may lead one to make a GRAVE ERROR.  One may say that He Created the physical systems and left them alone.  If He wants, He can intercede.

    On the contrary, it is His  CONSTANT Desire that upholds the observable physical systems and the Miraculous, equally.  Both forms of experience are just simple manifestation of what He wants.
In Truth, there are NO shifts at all!  All is a manifestation of His Desires, equally.

A question should logically arise:

If all occurrences are a Manifestation of His Infinite Desires,
how can I Affect or get to Know HIM?"

The answer is simple.

    We must  begin by understanding that Torah defines us as being in an Eternal Relationship with Hashem.  In order to portray the general characteristics of the ways in which He Relates to us [so our limited human intellects can begin to understand], He gives Himself metaphorical names like "Father," "King," "Husband," etc.,  throughout the Torah.  The different names or ways in which Hashem relates to us, is according to our involvement in Choosing and Communicating with our Partner (can be on both an individual or collective level).

    For example, a good marriage is one where the husband and wife constantly communicate with one another.  If they ARE open about their positions and feelings, the two will literally become one.  Over time, they will begin to sense and desire the exact same things.

    If they are NOT open about their positions and feelings, they will slowly drift apart.  As they drift apart, one will no longer have any clue what the other desires.  In the end, either they will be miserable living together or, G"F, will get a divorce.

    The foundation of all successful relationships, therefore, is clear:

HONEST COMMUNICATION.

Let us now combine the physical metaphor with Hashem. 

    Hashem is a Complete Infinity.  He desires a relationship with us.  When we genuinely attempt to get to know Him through open communication, it will result in Him showing us His Essence.  

What does this mean?

    The times that we see just a physical world, is similar to the husband and wife that no longer KNOW each other.

    In this time period of poor communication, the husband and wife remain, essentially, the same two people with the potential to reveal their soul unity [regardless of their feelings for one another].  The only difference is the ways in which they reveal themselves to one another [i.e. before they knew one another's deepest secrets, now they do not even care to remember one another’s favorite foods, etc.].  

    To make the metaphor even simpler, think about how differently you share your personality with aquaintances verses business partners, parents, wife, children, etc.  Each category of people will receive and evaluate you completely differently.  Nevertheless, you are correct to say that no change took place.  The only difference is the amount you desired to reveal or conceal your essence.  For example, we reveal ourselves to our children much more than the guy that we play basketball with on weekends.  He may only know you as a basketball player, but that DOES NOT LIMIT your capability to be a profound individual.

    All of these metaphors are relevant in understanding Hashem.  If we only pay attention to physical reality, He will be seen as just a physical reality (i.e. like the basketball player).  The times that we communicate with our Infinite Partner (i.e. decide to invite our basketball friend to the house for dinner), He reveals the physical world to be Bound up and Unified with Him (i.e. I do not just play basketball, I am a loving father, husband, philosopher, etc.).  At these times of communication, when we choose to be with Him, He may CHOOSE to share His most hidden secrets [just like a husband does when he is confident in his wife] with us [like he did with Zac].  The KEY is to know well that we are dealing with a TWO-WAY RELATIONSHIP. 

    With Zac, we can define a special part of our relationship with Hashem.  No physical space is a limitation to our ability to help another. When WE PRAY to our Infinite G-d, it is POSSIBLE to TRANSCEND PHYSICAL BOUNDARIES!  The POSSIBILITY  of seeing this transcendence is dependent upon a two-way effort.   When we illustrate our desire to communicate, compromise, and learn from Him, He will reveal His INFINITE ESSENCE.

Kol Tov

Avner Y.D.  

Similar Occurrences:

Substituting Oneself for Another.

A Famous Chassidic Story of the Alter Rebbe's Daughter, Rebbitzin Devorah Leah,  Substituting her life for her father's:

http://www.chabad.org/blogs/blog_cdo/aid/719253/jewish/A-Mothers-Greatest-Sacrifice.htm

Prayer from Madison, WI to Montreal, CA

This video is a request for others to pray for my Grandmother's well being, even though physical space separates us.  The results of over 500 prayers have been awesome. A future blog will explain the results.  Included in the video is a another story similar to Zacs.

 

  

 

Prayer from Israel to Milwaukee.

 

  

AN HONEST CURIOUSITY MOVES TOWARDS THE TRUTH

B"H

19th Day of the Omer

CURIOUSITY FINDS THE TRUTH  

 

The pictures you see of me from the year 2007 look very different from those taken in 2011 [see below for example]. 

The physical changes were so great that, just 9 months ago, during my travel back to America from Israel I was asked an exorbitant amount of questions from a 25 year old Customs Agent to determine my honesty. 

As her eyes became tired from comparing the passport picture with me, she resorted to back up.  She got on her phone and asked Special "Observational" Help... TWO TIMES. 

After 30 minutes of deep contemplation and teamwork 5 Professional members of the Israeli Airport Security came to the correct conclusion:

I (standing in front of them with Black Hat and Beard) 

am I (the college student with a mop-top on my passport). 

THE SAME PERSON!

Israelis are not shy. 

She smiled and remarked: 

 "So...When you become Haredi (Observant), you stop Eating?"

Ouch! 

  

February, 2007

 

  

Summer, 2007

 

Summer, 2009

 

 

Spring, 2010 

 

October 2010

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***Side Note***

This meant my parents were going to be frustrated with me the moment I walked into the house.  What they do not know [I guess they will know NOW] is that I made a specific effort in working out the month before leaving Israel, just to avoid this first appearance.   I guess I can thank the Customs Agent for preparing me for their frustration.  _________________________________________________________________________

  Regardless of my physical appearance: 

The conclusion she came to is amazing...absolutely amazing. 

I am, I.

After 4 years of self-evaluation, searching for the Truth, and battling multiple personalities: I remain...ME! 

The differences found in this time period (other than physical appearance) is that I was open to (or at least would attempt to) change/mature from experiences that my intellect evaluated to be correct.   This meant that I was willing to mature regardless of what I was emotionally or habitually attached to. 

So when all insignificant physical appearances are put aside, it becomes clear that I was not abnormal, just  another human being attempting to reach my potential.

I understood that if I remained too attached to physical pleasures, habit and emotional wants I would continue to react to lifes choices from a very narrow and limited perspective.  A limited perspective would naturally lead to a concealment of potential. 

This willingness to change highlighted many weakness and mistakes (specifically with friends and family members).  Most of my mistakes were honest mistakes.  What I mean by honest was I had good intentions.  However, because the initial focus was on ME,  I did not know how to be sensitive to others.  

The exploration was positive, and I knew this, but I was intimidated by the criticism of others.  SOOO...I moved in a "hidden" manner.  

The word "hidden" negatively implies :

1. I was not fully open with friends about the changes I was making. 
2. Although my protective imagination determined that my friends were unaware of my changes, THEY KNEW.
3. My desire to hide the changes unfairly confused people and led to close ones seeing me as a hypocrite [friends feel free to comment].

I can logically evaluate the situation and say that when one decides to make many life changes, mistakes are expected and okay, as long as the long-term goal of changing when a better approach arises is followed.  

This ability to be seeking, open and adaptable to all forms of advice and criticism promises that it is just matter of time before mistakes will be highlighted (either by myself or a friend).  When the incorrect pattern is realized, the adaptability to advice and criticism is an immediate first step towards fixing the problem. 

Looking outside of  the previous evaluation, real friends are defined as those that are willing and unafraid of giving advice to the person they care for if they know it be the right advice.   When a friend recognizes a mistake, this does not G"F force a seperation!  On the contrary, a friend takes the opportunity to communicate what is wrong and offers their support in help.

Now I will explain what brought about these situations:

For 4 years, I have been relatively unintimidated in my quest to break comfortable positions in order to define the Truth of the world and live accordingly.

Academia left too many questions untouched.  Although most of what I learned was important and true, the mysteries of the world were overwhelmingy interesting.

--------------------When did the The Curiosity Moves Towards Action?---------------------

My Sophomore year of college (2005-2006) at UW-Madison I wanted a girlfriend.

To get what I wanted, I decided to do something very foreign...

I glanced at my desk shelf and focused on two untouched gifts from my sister

1. The Book of Tehillim (Psalms of David)
2. A Siddur (A Jewish Prayer Book).

I decided I would try to pray for what I wanted.

 The prayer came in the form of an ultimatum. I can still see myself, like it was yesterday, standing in front of my dorm-desk saying,

"I am not sure of what You are.

I know that people claim that if I pray to You, You will answer my prayers. 

Please understand, I have never had a serious girlfriend. 

I WANT ONE.

Let us make a deal!

• I will read 5 pages from each of these two books every day. 
• If I do this, You can show me You exist by answering and giving me a girlfriend. 

I believe this DEAL IS FAIR ENOUGH!"

Low and Behold, a couple of weeks later,I met a very kind Lutheran girl that lived down the hall from me. 

Maybe it was just coincidence that the ultimatum/prayer was met! 

Maybe not...Regardless,

One MAJOR problem arose. 

My parents always told me that I had to marry a Jew. 

The day it became obviously clear that we liked eachother, we also discussed how we had to end the relationship by the end of the school year.  As time progressed, I found out that it is extremely hard to end a relationship, even a destructive one. 

I learned that time creates a strong foundation of comfort and strengthens emotional connections.  Although she most probably never had doubts in her mind about ending it, I was a dreamer and hoped to figure out how to hold on to what I had (maybe she would convert, etc.).

When my hopes became strong enough, I began to challenge my parents advice. Since when do I listen to another person (Yes, even my parents) if they have not sufficiently backed their claim? 

They claim I am supposed to marry a Jew, but I didn't like my religious education, and most of what I learned in Hebrew School was foolish.  I knew that many parents send their children to Hebrew school solely because they themselves had to go! 

I did not, however, want to disrespect my parents, but there was NO CONCLUSIVE EVIDENCE that I should DENY what I AM FEELING right now.  Therefore, in order to give my parents a fair shot, I had to do research.

Like any good lawyer, I had to evaluate myself and the strengths of different philosophies and religions.   I had to see if there was a hidden intrinsic connection to being Jewish that I was unaware of. 

Well, I wasn't perfect and unbaised in my research.  I wanted to negate all things Jewish to match my current desires so I  spent time trying to find another religion or philosophy that harmonized with my personal philosophy [this would take many more blogs to explain].  After months of exploration, nothing agreed with my intellectual recognitions of what is true.  Many perspectives, to be quite honest, had apparent contradictions and weaknesses. 

This went on for months, and as I learned,  I would discuss what I found with my girlfriend (sometimes we gave the official title, sometimes not).  The conversations were amazing (in MY mind, at least) and I thought I was convincing her to change. 

I thought we were moving towards the TRUTH!  Religious ideas were placed on the table and  she was agreeing! 

Until... SHE DISAGREED.

"Jacob, you have your faith.  I have mine.  It doesnt matter what you will tell me. It does not change anything when ideas we discuss scare me or challenge my belief. 

 I will NOT CHANGE.  I Have my OWN FAITH! 

We can NEVER speak about this again."

My heart broke.

What should I do?  

All of my energy and effort in lengthy dialogue and research in order to fix the religion "issue"  hasn't helped at all.  

After honestly trying to find what we logically could determine to be true; she still relied upon FAITH! 

For days I asked myself, "If intellect has broken faith how can one still hold onto religion? "  

 I was really confused.

With all of the time spent contemplating and writing journals to understand what I intellectually realized to be true, no religion or philosophy fit. 

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UNTIL THAT FATEFUL DAY...

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I finally let down my guard and opened myself up to Judaism.  Not the Judaism that I was fed in Hebrew School [to be more accurate the principal's office], but real fundamental ideas directly from pure Torah and Rabbinic Sources. 

My introduction was the Guide to the Perplexed (Moreh Nevukim) by The Rambam.  This is a Jewish philosophical treatise that approaches, fills the holes of, and confidentely answers many questions regarding other philosophies and religious theologies that were attractive to Jews in medieval times.   He accepts the correct opinions of some, exposes the weaknesses of many and adds essential missing details only found in Torah. 

More important than its Intellectual Prowess, I could not believe how everything I read PARALLELED the JOURNALS I had written. 

ONE STATEMENT TOOK A HOLD OF ME

IT BECAME MY [aspiring] MISSION STATEMENT!

In Jewish thought, A HUMAN THAT WANTS TO REACH HIS/HER POTENTIAL MUST ALLOW HIS/HER INTELLECT TO CONTROL HIS/HER HEART. 

ONE OF THE GREATEST LEVELS A HUMAN CAN REACH IS ONE OF STOICISM IN THE EFFORT TOWARDS TRUTH! 

Stoicisim is the ability to be uninfluenced by personal and environmental instabilities, cycles or influences in their move forward towards the Right Choices. 

Further, if this stoic mindset (that I found so amazing) is how the Rambam determines what is true, and his approach is guided by Torah, it must mean that it is time to give Torah's guiding principles a fair shot. 

With this approach  of stoicisim towards the truth, I recognized a contradiction arising within myself.  

• While my emotional distaste for Judaism grew
• I was intellectually realizing there is a good chance that I had an undeniable INTRINSIC CONNECTION TO the Truth of G-D according to the principles of TORAH. 

I spent 1 FULL year trying my best to deny this connection.  I tried extremely hard to convince myself that a Jewish education was unimportant.  In the end, B"H, I lost the fight! 

While my parents may not have had a good explanatory reason why I should marry Jewish, I INTELLECTUALLY realized that their statement was ABSOLUTELY TRUE. 

Further, the ultimatum that I made to G-d through the unsuspecting prayer books that collected dust on my shelf [a major thank you to my sister] illicited a physical conversation with Hashem. 

 ...I said, "If You (G-d) want to prove that You are real, give me a Girlfriend!" 

He responded , "Here is your Girlfriend, she will be the conduit towards you (Jacob) realizing your Intrinsic Relationship to Me!"

Come and see. G-d works in Wonderous ways.

The first believer in Hashem/G-d was Avraham Avinu (Abraham our Forefather). 

He recognized the Infinite and Unifying Creator of the world through physical reality.  He became so excited from intellectually understanding how G-d IS the World that  he could not contain the information within himself. 

He felt a responsibility to share. 

However, even with his excitement and overwhelming proofs, many will not act upon these new understandings.  Why? Because knowing leads to change and change leads to leaving comfort.   

Each individual has a unique set of experiences that can help us to understand more.  I am requesting that you join me in the quest for defining the empirical reality of G-d through our experiences through the lense of Torah. 

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I will leave you with a story that uniquely applies to us all. 

Adam decided to SEARCH for the truth. 

This search guided him towards an incredible amount of books, research papers, magazines,newspapers, intellectual debates and discussions, etc.  

Adam quickly became worldly and cultured individual.  This process of refining and increasing his level of knowledge resulted in an increased popularity amongst his friends, family and strangers alike.   Over time he recognized and greatly enjoyed the additional benefits of his search (i.e. popularity, friends, being smarter than others, ect.)

Until one day he actually found the source of Truth that was the reason for search itself.  As Adam's eyes skimmed through its pages, he felt that he stood within the shelter of Infinite Wisdom. 

This made Adam nervous.

So he responded to the Truth by saying,

"Thanks for presenting yourself to me, but I got involved in searching for the Truth because I like the Search and its benefits."

Adam read the book like he would with any other, used it in conversation, and moved forward as before he read it. ___________________________________________________________________

The searcher's mistake is that he is not aware that the Truth is filled with happiness and infinite layers of wisdom.  He could have continued his search within the Truth and it would have occupied him for the rest of his life.  Again, there are so many layers of wisdom that no amount of human searching can define the entirety of its length, width and depth.   

Let us use the realm of Intellect to PROVE and SEE the INTRINSIC and UNDENIABLE REALITY of the world through a COLLECTION of HUMAN EXPERIENCES.  Together, we can begin to understand the intrinsic truth of Torah and a Hashem in a way never done before.    We can prove Him the same way that Science Proves that the natural order of Gravity pushes water towards the earth. This approach is guarenteed to open our eyes and be acceptable to everyone.

All The Best.

Avner Y.D.

P.S. 

It is absolutely essential for those that read to ask questions and build a community on this blog.  Experiences and stories are meant to be the beginning of dialogue. 

For each video posted, the individual either speaking or spoken about has agreed to personally respond to your questions (in one form or another)!